|All Work and No Play Makes Gwen a Dull Girl
||[Mar. 22nd, 2006|11:16 am]
I think that I inadvertantly(sp?) push people away because I'm too busy focusing on studying all the time. It's not that I don't want to make friends (because I really do!), but I really want to get good grades and graduate and get a good job after college.
But then again, it feels at times like no one even really cares about being friends with me, they're just using me to help them pass the class. I don't mind helping people with assignments and to understand concepts of the class... I just wish someone would talk to me without asking me questions about what the teacher just said or how we're supposed to do the homework.
I guess I should take the first step and ask someone if they want to hang out sometime. But the thing is I get such anxiety about what we're going to do, where, when, etc (there's reasons behind this anxiety, it's not just random or that i'm afraid of people); and then I think about how they have their own group of friends, why would they want to hang out with me? In all honesty, I am pretty boring.
Which leads me to think of why I'm so boring, and it's because all I do is study all the time. So what am I supposed to talk about with anyone besides school, which is probably why all the friends I make within my classes only talk with me about school related issues.